I felt left out so I'm nudging myself in annoyingly

benjithedog21 @ 2007-08-12T12:43:00

2007-08-12T16:43:42Z

<td align="center"> Kristy --
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Like in nature to a train-riding hobo

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I think I've been messed up

2007-07-19T19:23:14Z

but not in the way that I could write a song about it.
It's more of a surpressed insecurity that will stay with me for the rest of my life and for the rest of that time I'll probably be looking to other people to validate my existence to make up for what I've lost.
Only no one can no that because that makes me weak and therefore... worthless
Don't cry, only people who aren't good enough cry.

Begin the second half of the summer

2007-07-02T13:11:10Z

Hmm I can't really tell if anything's changed. I don't think so yet, maybe this second part of the summer is when everything changes. I met Matt's great aunt and uncle. She has one lung and he plays bluegrass, they're pretty cool I guess. I can't wait for IU and I really can't wait for New York.

Something isn't right.

2007-06-09T00:10:11Z

Hanging around, nothing to do but frown, rainy days and mondays always get me down...

I think I had a good time

2007-06-03T10:44:59Z

Everyone is graduating

Or leaving

but me.

And again I feel that people can never really change who they always have been.

2007-06-02T17:53:16Z

I realized...
I will never win an argument with you
because I will never be like you
but you will never change me.

Too bad this doesnt matter anymore

I suppose I should write something...

2007-06-01T19:37:34Z

Well its the last day of school. That's sort of exciting. I'm glad for change at least. Also I'm gonna start meditating today to be ready for camp! That sounds strange but you'll understand I think...

Well, here we go again

2007-05-10T00:18:03Z

I suppose I expect you to at least try to make things better
you never do, you know?
You promise but you always make things worse
The people around you make things worse

I love The Trend!

2007-04-27T22:00:06Z

It was summer

2007-04-25T23:41:00Z

we got chinese food and promised ourselves a challenge

I did it too

2007-04-25T00:28:49Z

why not?

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It's summer!

2007-04-21T18:03:49Z

and I think I want a bike!

?

2007-04-20T20:16:28Z

yahoo, facebook, multiply, myspace, youtube, livejournal... did I leave anything out?
Holy fuck, what the hell is wrong with me?

I didnt feel like writing it down

2007-04-19T22:04:35Z

benjithedog21 @ 2007-04-16T20:11:00

2007-04-17T00:11:40Z

Please say that's not me

Hey I made a movie

2007-04-12T21:04:53Z

It's fifteen seconds long but I really did do this:

And ok yea, its kinda bad but I promise it was better before I put it onto youtube.

Hey, I'm home

2007-04-07T16:36:49Z

I have a good luck charm now and I'm closer to my sister than ever before

I've been waiting until I'm old enough for so long but I guess now I've realized that I'm old enough already, and if I really really wanted do something then I would have found a way to do it anyway.
So now, with my good luck charm, I know what I want I just need to want it bad enough to find a way.

Welcome to Minneapolis

2007-04-04T15:50:49Z

Is everyone else's vacation depressing or is that just what you're remembering to write.
Kels your poems are getting better and better.
I love this city, it feels like home.
By the way, no matter where you go or how big the town gets there's still nothing to do until you think of something.
I havent taken as many pictures as I thought I would have by now.
I guess pictures really are for tourists
That said, there is a time and place for pictures I suppose.

I still took some pictures but I was definately right, the best way to visit a place is to live there.

Bollywood

2007-03-29T00:51:08Z

Megan this one's for you

....

2007-03-25T12:52:22Z

Goddamn.
It really makes you question the reality of things

Oh the working life...

2007-03-24T04:08:50Z

well, I ate shrimp on the barbie.
That doesnt seem very impressive but you don't know my hatred of shrimp like I do.

Lalalala

2007-03-18T03:53:01Z

I might not travel the whole world but if I believe in me, isnt that enough?

Here comes the sun

2007-03-11T23:53:42Z

Ah it was so nice outside!

well, It's almost spring time

2007-03-06T23:45:56Z

Hmm I've been driving a lot lately. We'll go on a roadtrip soon I think. Got to.

Hey, remember me?

2007-03-04T14:07:33Z

I painted masks yesterday with Matt for my latin costume and they look pretty nice really. I got a lot of money and I asked to learn to coordinate since if I learn to do that I'll probably never have to roll silverware again cus no one else knows how. Thats a plus. My hands are super dry and today I think I'll try to talk matt into baking cookies with me! He's the only person I see on the weekends, why? maybe I should call you guys more so I can go on some of those adventures you always talk about around me at school only I'm too afraid to because I don't want you to have to akwardly let me down gently or make a transparent excuse if you don't want me to come. I dont feel like that when I'm around you. I just feel like if you really wanted me there you'd call but you don't. Like when claire came to town, did anyone call karen, no they didn't, because she's annoying and no one wanted her to come.
I dont blame you, my phone is never on. Maybe I should call but I'd just like you to call once, to proove that it's safe for me to ask to tag along? Maybe it's hard cus things just get so complicated? I'm just tired of hanging out with Steinstra and working and then hearing parts of things that sound a lot better than what I did this weekend but that aren't directed at me. Geez....maybe at this point I should quote a song or a book to be a little more like eg.